So much to say, but where does one start?
How does one describe a man that was the epitome of what a father should be? And a mother who had the patience of a saint, and her family was all important? Don't misunderstand me, my Father and Mother were not perfect, far from it. But, whenever I needed advise or a shoulder or just a hug, they were there! Have you heard the Holly Dunn song, "Daddy's Hands"?
Or the song "Butterfly Kisses"? Well, those 2 songs describe my Dad and me!And Momma and me, well, Momma was the "Wind Beneath My Wings!"
I guess that Momma just missed Daddy too much to stay here with us.Seems like the cancer diagnosis was the final straw and altho she underwent Chemo and Radiation, and the tumor had shrunk greatly, I think that her heart was just broken too much with the loss of Daddy and she just gave up.
I am sure that there are some people that don't understand why I am writing a page like this.To those of you, I cannot explain!But for those people who do know me,no explaination is necessary!So all I will say, is many thanks for all the understanding and for just being there!
I see Dad in things I do, and places I go and I guess that he is trying to tell me that he is okay and to get on with my life. Momma went a year after Dad did. They say time heals, well, I don't think that it heals, I think that it just allows you to begin to function with some normal tendencies, it allows the grief to be not all consuming altho the grief is still very much a part of my life.Life does in fact go on.
The one saving grace,the one that allows me to go on, is now I know that neither of my parents are ill or in pain or lonely any more. Now when I think of them, and see them in my minds eye, I see them both healthy and smiling and happy again. For now, this is what makes life seem "bearable."
I find a little more of my parents strength each day, and more ability to cope each day. And you know what, I find that I can LIVE each day. And Live I do. For with the blood of my parents running thru my veins, I am doing better and I will be fine!!!!
Just know this, we all miss you Momma and Daddy, so very much!!!